I used to get excited
to see your name
show up on my phone
late at night,
while i was at work,
when i was in the shower.
I would rush and hurry
to respond to make sure
you didn’t lose interest,
and that you would reply
just as fast as
dried off my legs
and failed to rub lotion on.
And then I realized,
I was doing the same with you.
I was rushing,
making sure that we took each
one after another
without taking a break,
to make sure
that you didn’t lose interest,
like i knew you eventually would.
I wasn’t right for you,
and I tried to avoid that fact,
because I loved you.
I made you a country
in my world,
something like
in World War II.
You dominated.
And I tried to ignore that
at the end of the day,
you had more to find out about
You weren’t certain.
Instead of me acknowledging that
and passing you on
to yourself,
I tried to aid in your growth.

I became naive enough,
to let you stunt mine.

Cheating Yourself.

-Sade Harrison

(via wildsultrys0ul)